hoops and landslides

it's this time again. poland turns out not so gracious to a prodigal daughter. so far, my education doesn't count, because it's american, my resume is too strange for anyone to bother with, and my near 7 years of work in hungary doesn't count towards my social security, because a clerk in the office doesn't think so and her interpretation of EU law stands, because she's in charge. today i knocked on a couple of doors and spoke with a couple of stuck up clerks. first i was told to call another office and make an appointment. on the phone i was told no appointment was necessary, but i wasn't entitled for unemployment benefits anyway. i decided to go talk to them face to face and get something in writing.  by the time i got there i was losing it. they told me an application had to be made, but all sorts of documents needed to be attached, which - of course - i didn't have, since all the information they gave me on the phone was that 7 years was too long. all that was left for me to do was take their friggin' forms and get out of there. as i rode the bus home, choking on angry tears, i had a phone call - a small job i had signed for just yesterday morning, fell through. at home i found out my friend's father in another country had been killed by a car at a crosswalk. it's time to end this day so nothing more can happen. i'm thinking of the doctrine of things again - all things are for your sake, all things are yours, all things work together for good with those who love God, i can do all things through Christ...